Watch a clip of the interview below.
“I’ve ran from myself for a long time and I’ve hated myself for a long time,” Underwood said on the ABC morning show. “I’m gay.”
He added, “I got to a place in my personal life that was dark and bad.”
“I came to terms with that earlier this year and have been processing it, and the next step in all of this is sort of letting people know,” Underwood said. “I’m still nervous. It’s been a journey, for sure.”
Underwood, a former NFL player whose relationship with Bachelor co-star Cassie Randolph was among the franchise’s more popular storylines before it ended, post-show, acrimoniously, with Randolph filing a restraining order against Underwood and accusing him of stalking and harassment (she later withdrew the order), told Roberts that he “messed up” with Randolph.
“I made a lot of bad choices,” Underwood said. “I loved everything about her, and that only made it harder and more confusing for me.”
“I’m sorry for the pain and emotional stress I caused,” Underwood said. “I wish it wouldn’t have happened the way it did. I wish that I would have been courageous enough to fix myself before I broke anybody else.”
Underwood told Roberts that his emotional turmoil led to suicidal thoughts, like imagining driving off a cliff. “There was a moment in L.A. that I woke up and I didn’t think I was going to wake up,” he said. “I didn’t have the intentions of waking up.” He said the incident was a “wake-up call.”
“I’m like the happiest and healthiest I’ve ever been in my life and that means the world to me,” Underwood said.
The Bachelor franchise’s executive producers said in a statement, “We are so inspired by Colton Underwood’s courage to embrace and pursue his authentic self. As firm believers in the power of love, we celebrate Colton’s journey in the LGBTQIA+ community every step of the way.”
The reality franchise’s longtime host Chris Harrison broke his social media silence following his controversial remarks earlier this year to applaud Underwood’s decision.
Anthony Allen Ramos, head of talent for GLAAD, said in a statement, “Every LGBTQ person’s journey to discovering and accepting their authentic self is different, and Colton Underwood’s decision to share his truth with the public reminds us that there is no set timeline for coming out. Given the large and loyal fandom who know Colton from The Bachelor, his coming out and discussion of his faith will hopefully open eyes to the millions of out and proud LGBTQ people who are also people of faith.”
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